Monday, January 18, 2010

Uncertainty



It seems that quite some time has elapsed since my last post.
To be honest, it sometimes takes the calculated movements of an existentialist to really bother with this thing at all, given that I am the only one that reads it.

This, however, is not the point. I guess the point is to do it purely because it's enjoyable, and I guess it's good practice in owning what you are interested in without becoming overtly embarrassed/full of yourself.

But it seems that, despite all the good reasons I have for making this a worthwhile practice, the well has run dry on this side of things and I seem to have lost my original zest for this project. As stated before, this is predominantly a result of not really knowing what to do with it. The internet is saturated with blogs that exist purely to promote a person's life/lifestyle and I do not want to contribute to that clogged cannon.
Maybe it's a matter of wondering if what I have to say is important, but then the old cyclical madness of writer's block starts to feel all too familiar again and that thought must be dumped post haste.

And so, my dear non-existent readers, perhaps my new plan of attack will be to regress to the days of imaginary tea parties, where tree stumps and pocket watches serve as the most important guests to grace my expansive kingdom.

So on that note....

Sunday, January 3, 2010

TickTickTick





This was a very big weekend, containing an event that has the potential to change the course of some very important life choices.
And as another day passes into the recesses of yet another frigid night, I try to force myself into calm, realizing the the foolishness of that concept, as well as the futility to try any other course.

Ah yes, to ring in the New Year with paranoia and delusions of grandeur.
Nails bitten to the quick, mentally running circles around myself...at least it's fair to say that I am still very fully myself regardless of any calendar year's sudden and triumphant arrival.

And so, on that note, it is time to cuddle with cats to the oddly soothing sound of a Jets game tinkling in the background.